i wake up, screaming
cold sweat
dripping down my forehead
a memory
...
i hope you really care
like you say you do
i hope you realize
that you are my world
...
every scar on my arm
every pill that i pop
every drink i consume
is a part of me confused
...
nicotine's aroma
lingers on my skin
thoughts of pills
overpower and win
...
my mind is exhausted
my memories erased
my hands washed clean
my happiness laced
...
there are burning tears
streaming down my terrified face
i try to explain my behavior
but nobody can handle it
...