I want to be held by you every night
I want to be able to say I love you everyday
To see you every day
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That feeling of fear like none other
knowing your body is not on the same page
that pain never experienced before
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Time doesn't take the pain
Record plays
so fresh, so clear
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The reality of the sun
so warm, bright, comforting
The relm of my mind
so negative, dark, cold
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These thoughts that play on repeat
Punish me because I deserve it
It's never enough
Pain is never to real
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I understand all to well
The things I do
To avoid the thoughts
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This world of many
Many of horrors
These simple things in life I love
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This state of being
Is but a moment in life
A moment I do not want to feel
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