Linda A

Why speak
when words become weak
and everything you want is in the darkness
and you are forever alone
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Everything in me starts turning,
as a darkness gently shrouds.
The blood within in me begins burning,
as it creeps in with the clouds.
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I don’t live like I used to
I don’t know me like I once knew
The things I hear I cannot comprehend
What was real to me, to you was pretend
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From the sun's descent to its rising,
everything inside me begins devising.
All the soul within me realizing,
any doubt I am now disguising.
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It feels like times stopped since that moment
Like I haven't been alive since then
Memories are all I know
What is presently happening
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My arms reach for heaven
but my feet are firmly rooted in hell
I'd like to escape the fire
but i'm not doing well
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Our time is done - the party has ended
I lost one and i'm slightly offended
I tried hard to make it work
Nothing ever works
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My soul's made of stone
From triumph to tragedy
A mountain has grown
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I hear lies in the words you say
Your mouth molds truth like clay
I feel distance in the love you display
You must have slept with Emily today
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How can the sun be so high in the sky
While i'm down here dull, barely alive
Why does it get to shine so brightly
When I try my hardest and all my efforts spite me
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i look up to a black universe
then down at dirty bare feet
there must be nothing worse
than feelin the darkness inside of me
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I wonder what i'll have learned
by the time I meet my death..
Will every second have counted,
or only the last breath?
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This weight on my brain is unforgiving
no matter my efforts or pleas
Something strange is in me living
with misfortune and unease
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I wish I had sent you that message
I'll never have the chance again
I thought you'd always be there
I never thought til when
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I apologize for relying so heavily on you
I’m sorry for the times I put on or withdrew
I never meant to confuse or push you away
I heard people talk but who were they
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I underestimated the search
and came out a fool
I looked for answers everywhere
and everywhere found ghouls
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I don't want this anymore
I want to let it go
I'm not who I was before
I have to show you so you know
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The words escape me
Their message is daunting
I begin to hate me
Repercussions are haunting
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It's not you I want.
It's nothing anybody could understand.
I'm just searching for my man.
Searching and waiting, hopelessly dating.
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I didn't know a moment so calm could become this chaotic.
I never thought our downfall would be narcotics.
How can I be surprised, after so many years?
My hero has long disappeared.
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