Lori Livengood

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This Is How I Feel About You

I believed every word you said and that was one of my biggest mistakes ever. I deeply loved you and gave you everything you ever wanted. I guess I wasn't good enough.
You gave in to those around you so your life can be easier. Who must live with the emptyness and hurt that you gave out? I do.
You promised me so much and you broke it all. You sealed promises with a gentle kiss and you rip them out of me. Your words hurt more then they made me love you and that's really sad.
One day you will figure out that you do love me and it will be too late. Why did you even date me if I was such a burden in your life? Was it because you felt sorry for me? I sheltered you in my wings and gave you a tender, gentle, passionate love that no one else would give to you. You shoved it into my face and scarred my heart.
You have no idea how much pain I'm in because of you. On the outside I look happy as if nothing was wrong. I lived a lie with you. My insides are torn to no point of return. I should have said no, but I believed in you and thought you wouldn't hurt me. Your words were never sincere they just poked, pulled, and played with the strings of my heart.
My tears slowly come down my face and you have no sympathy at all. You pretend to care. You never did love me. You said I was your first love so I can be stupid enough to believe it. You tore my faith out of me and the love I had left. I'm broken and incomplete to the point of no return. Everybody told me not to go with you again, but I had so much faith in you. I backstabbed my friends and family because of your lies.
Who looks like the fool now? I do because they saw something I never saw in you. You were perfect in my eyes, but my eyes were blind. There was no flaw in you at all. Maybe I'm just something you couldn't love. Or once I got old you got rid of me like you got rid of your childhood memories. I maybe young, but when it comes to your stupidity I see right through you.
The tears slowly fall down my cheeks and I don't know why. You are not worth my tears, but its the only way my heart can free itself of the terror that you have done to it. You held the glass in your hands. Scraped it, bent it, and even written on it. Thats permanent in glass. You can't remove whats inscribed into it. Then you throw it onto the floor and smash it into a million pieces. Each of those pieces was my heart, feelings, hopes, and dreams. Do you even care to repair it? Or will you leave it for the rest of the world to walk all over?

Was it all me? I guess I wasn't good enough for your snobbish, insecure, and judgemental family. They became a part of you and you completely disobey them.
Look into the mirror you called your mom and sisters names. If you actually look into the mirror you would see that you are them! Your the same hurtful person they are. You say your differnent from them, but your not. Your shoved so far up your mom's butt that I doubt you will ever leave her side. And you say you don't love her. Your just like her!
Open your eyes and see what everyone else sees. I hate you for what you have done to me, but you have no idea how I feel. After every single break up your not even friends with me at all. I was nothing, but your girlfriend with no friendship established under the relationship. The only time you would actually text me back is to say I love you too. If I had a problem you would totally ignore me and not care how I feel. I could be crying hysterically and you wouldn't dare give me that shoulder to cry on.
Honestly, you and Rachel have a lot in common. Many won't see the comparison, but both of you give up what's best in your lives and leave it forgotten in your past. How do the people feel that you both threw out? Forgotten? Lost? Worst of all we feel like its our fault that you left. I beat my insides all up thinking that this is all my fault, but in reality I'm perfect just the way I am and its all you.
One day you will want me and I won't be around. How could you love me and rip it out of me? Not caring how I feel what so ever. You have made me go into closure and theres only one person who's not letting me fall that hard. She's been by my side since the beginning if it wasn't for her who knows where I would be right now. You have torn my faith, my heart, and my love. I hope you happy with what you succeeded. This is goodbye and I'm not looking back.

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