lost lindsey

Standing in front of the Mirror
Looking into lost hazel eyes
nothing is there (not to my surprise)
Small hands and small feet,
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My heart grows restless for him
missing his caress
and false saccharine words
singing his song was a melancholy old tune
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I smile through the blood
And laugh with every hit
Smell the booze on his breath
Won't be the last time yet 
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I feel their eyes on our hands
Laced together with determination
I feel their eyes on our arms
Tightly clinging each others backs
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Wind pushing through my arms
And my back and legs,
My long blonde hair whipping
Around my tired naked body.
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I feel caught and constrained
Can't move my arms 
Out of this damn straight jacket
I feel duct tape on my mouth
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I miss the days of long swirling breezy skirts
And missing teeth smiles.
I miss playing with my dog and eating the
Wild raspberries in the woods.
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See stupid carefree pictures
on stupid facebook
All those girls who are so pretty
they don't even have to try
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Hope is a wonderful thing
Feel it curling around me
Feel it's ribbons clothe me
Feel a smile on my face
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These limbs I have
These arms I call mine
holding myself in my pain and agony
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