Naledi Wendy Kerapeletswe Biography

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I'm afraid of believing that it cud actually work, that all my dreams cud come true coz inside i tremble at the thought of yet another disappointment...
Im afraid of trusting completely, of opening up my heart to the endless possibilities coz this heart shudders at the thought of being shattered again...
Im afraid of letting go, of giving in to a higher power coz my soul is too fragile to withstand another blow...
Im afraid...and yet i have the will to hope
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Just because i look strong on the outside doesnt mean i got it together, deep within me everything that i am is falling apart, all that i ever believed in has been robbed of its foundations...
Just because im smiling on the outside doesnt mean im holding it together, my heart is aching with the pain of disappointment, my soul is crying out for help, reaching out for a helping hand, for a hug that says 'its gonna be ok'...
Just because i dont say nothing when you tell me im a failure doesnt mean it doesnt hurt on the inside, coz every time i look at the mirror thats who i see looking back at me, coz those words resonate within my mind and just wont let go...
Just because i dont shed tears on the outside it doesnt mean im nt cryin on the inside, my heart is torn at the thought of not makin it, my soul is in anguish at the pain ive caused my mother, and i dnt have the hope and strength to face another day, another year, another disappointment...
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