Jst Bcoz... Poem by Naledi Wendy Kerapeletswe

Just because i look strong on the outside doesnt mean i got it together, deep within me everything that i am is falling apart, all that i ever believed in has been robbed of its foundations...
Just because im smiling on the outside doesnt mean im holding it together, my heart is aching with the pain of disappointment, my soul is crying out for help, reaching out for a helping hand, for a hug that says 'its gonna be ok'...
Just because i dont say nothing when you tell me im a failure doesnt mean it doesnt hurt on the inside, coz every time i look at the mirror thats who i see looking back at me, coz those words resonate within my mind and just wont let go...
Just because i dont shed tears on the outside it doesnt mean im nt cryin on the inside, my heart is torn at the thought of not makin it, my soul is in anguish at the pain ive caused my mother, and i dnt have the hope and strength to face another day, another year, another disappointment...
Just because i wake up every day doesnt mean i knw wher i am goin, it doesnt mean i knw my goals and dreams, it doesnt mean i knw what i wanna do, deep inside me my soul is confused and lost...
Just because i knw my name doest mean i knw who i am...
...just because...