MY GRANDAD
I wrote this poem the day of my grandfather's death and read it out at his funeral.
So many things I never got to say
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i'll love you forever
you know its true
thats why i cry whenever
i think of you
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i really wish
one small wish
thats for me to be with you
and to say how much i love you!
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why do i feel this way
why is it i have to stay?
it was you that had to go
why we will never know
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these are the lips i've kissed you with,
these are the eyes i've seen you with,
these hands are the hands i've touched you with,
this is the heart is the heart i love you with.
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i creid today
a strong emotion that wont go away
i try my best to decieve
to hide the way i feel, this i do no achieve
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i love you to no end
a feeling i cannot suspend
since youve gone
everything feels wrong
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is it love or lust?
the answer is a must
my stomach starts to flutter
my heart melts like butter
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If this is love
Why does it hurt?
you treat me like im from above
Yet i left you in the dirt!
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its pancake day
all shout wahay
lots of scrumy pancakes
with all types of yummy flakes
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people are staring
while i get my bearing
its map and compass
oh i hope i can pass
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i am going to school
which is not too cool
its so boring
i could start bawling
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senery passing
as we are nearly crashing
at a high speed
oh, look a tiny weed
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now that you have gone away
i must learn to live another way,
as time passes day by day,
i have to try not to stray.
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christmas was lonely
although surrounded by family
you were not there
for my presants i did not care
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over a year is gone
but it doesnt feel that long
my boyfriend is gone
coz he was a mong
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Suicide
why am i here
i cry with fear
this cant be right
i dont want to fight
why shud i fight for you?
there must be somthing else to do
you havent got a clue
its depression not the flu
i dont want to be here anymore
please let me close the door
let me end my life
give me back my knife
the phisical pain
removes the mental pain
just one more slice
now thats just nice
now i need more
please just one more
fine ill have a fag
oh please dont nag
let me be
you dont want me here
you dont need or love me
thats why your never near
a stranger can see more than you see
they can see the pain inside me
while the night is still
i will take that last pill!
why did you bring me back?
wen now you want me to pack
you dont understand me
you dont even listen
why cant you let me be?
stop watching my eyes glisten!