139.Ruminations Of An Autumn Leaf Poem by rajagopal haran

(Dear Readers

While going for morning jogging I see a lady around 65 years old who has lost her husband recently; after certain rounds she sits alone and is absorbed in deep thoughts; she never shows the enthusiasm to go back to her house; side effect of this process is this poem)

Golden chariots of kings wear out
Not in the case of the heavenly
How come I lost you to the flames?
You have gone too far though nearer me!

Breaking my heart in the process
And making me live unheard and unknown
Allowing me to die an unlamented death
You have gone with the wind dissolving my heart!

Night bed is vacant hand falling on the floor
Making me wake up to the reality of your vacancy
Perspiration washing my body not due to our union
Sleeping also a punishment, for how long I don’t know!

Gone were the days, me lying on your shoulders
The garland of my hands encircling your neck
Spraying you with kisses complimented kindly
Looking for the traces to make them my fossils!

Hours days months and years sliding away
Carrying along sweet memories drawn with indelible ink
Gave me a jolt, yes we were born alone, to die alone also?
Was it an illusion that we were together?

I try to shrink away my mind, as it can’t echo your thoughts
Not succeeding in my efforts to merge into nothing out in the cold
Where the repository of thy soul is waiting for me to come
Daring to make a stable union, tired of my loneliness pining in
solitude!


23.12.2008