2 Poem by deidre hassan

i feel some thing holding me back... i try to go on about my ways, i try to be normal, but this...this... thing..i don't know what it is, is holding me back. it dosen't slip up it's always here, it dosen't let me go anywhere! it's chocking me! its killing me me! 'there's just got to be some thing else! ', i cry. but no one is listening... tears are flooding my eyes and my breathing slows... the knot is getting tighter! its killing me... can't you see! ! ! im turnig blue! my thoughts are being erased! my spirit is dizolving... god? are you really there? do you really love me? ? ? is this for real? .... please! ! ! these scars that have brought me here are too much to last! ! they remind me of every fault everything i've ever done wrong, everything everyone has ever done to me... i don't want this with me! ! i don't need this! ! this life isn't for me! ! please bring me out of the dark. this hold is not for me. see god its not for me, it dosen't even fit me.look its too big. i can even slip out of it...