A Day With Gastroparesis Poem by Monica Engeler

I woke up this morning
Outside the sun was shining
Nothing seemed to be the matter
Yes, I also felt somewhat better.

Then I got up and got my breakfast
and quickly walked to the TV den fast
I ate my cold yogurt, and drank my coffee
And watched the early morning Newsies.

Afterwards I washed my plates
and then left the room to manipulate
My home office and studio was on the second floor
Here I can hide and create behind closed doors.

Shortly after I was in my room,
I had to retreat and dispose of my breakfast
Sadly this episode happens numerous times a day
In between I do try to work in some remote way.

Today my vomits were many I felt sad
After dinner, I climbed on my bed feeling bad
I cried, and cried for awhile and then closed my eyes
My burning eyes woke me and who knows why?

I signed in to my GI patient portal and noted my day
For some reason at that moment the sadness went away
Dejectedly, I have no real contact at all left of this doctor,
but I think my stress of him that was left was over.

Maybe my doctor will phone me and value my pain
Maybe he will not call me and all of my efforts will be in vain
For now, my life appears to be at a loss for words of happiness
Thus far, I puked fourteen times and still I seem helpless.

In a short while, I will turn my pc off for the day
I pray that tomorrow something will bring a smile my way
Please somehow, someway, may my anguish be gone
I know Gastroparesis will not disappear but stay on.