A Decision To Make... Poem by Adriana Flores

Lying in bed trying to think back to the day we threw it all away.
Maybe I can find a way to fix things between us?
Nothing comes to mind and all I can feel is the pain and fear that builds up insid,
I think maybe I never really meant a thing to you, I fear that today I'll have to let go of everything we built.
Moving on is hard, I want to be with a man who will respect me and love me for who I am, one who won't front in front of his friends and pretend I don't mean a thing to him, one who won't cheat and lie every time I turn my back.
Right now I'm feeling like I can't put up with anymore lies but I know later when I start missing you, I'll want to call just to hear your voice and crawl back into the hole,
So what's it going to be, am I going to stay and be your lady or are we going to depart from each other and go our separate ways?
I can't be here for you while you're out there acting like you're not in love, fronting to your friends about how many girls you've sexed and how you have me so in love you know I'll come back every time.
Baby your wrong cause I'm a lady and no lady lets a man put her through such hard times, have a little more respect for the woman who was always by your side through thick and thin cause I don't know about you but I think no other woman will put up with your mess like I have.
Once I'm gone there's no turning back so make up your mind, do you want a real woman in your life or do you want to keep messing around with those women giving you head the same way they do it to other men when you go away.
-Bea