A Final Resolution Poem by Amanda Saveley

Spending time alone pondering
The mysteries of life and my own twisted psychology
Writing and sleeping like both are the plague
Not able to avoid that which makes me insane
Can't break the chains that bind me near
Can't hold me down if you're not here

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
In fact my dislike almost consumes my love
Erasing you from memory

You were what I lived for
The one reason I stayed
In this meaningless existance
You taught me how to have an opinion
But not how to make one
The outer shell of my strength you built
But now I see the vulnerable core exposed

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
I'd rather forget you
But you're always there...

When I look in the mirror
When I write my name
When I am sentimental
You know you are to blame
When I look in the mirror
I don't like what I see
But I will do anything anything anything
To separate you and me

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really really really
Don't care anymore
I'll throw you away like you just did to me
Pretend you aren't part of my life
Detach myself like you are made of fire

My mind is all made up
I'm doing what I can
I'm trying hard to think
But I don't understand
My head is spinning round
I don't know what to do
And now it's always raining
You're the one to blame

I wanna hear
What you've got to say
But now when you open your mouth
I'll just turn and walk away

Now that it's over, you can't hurt me
Now it's all over, you can't bring me down