A Letter To God Poem by Aaliyah SantiagoJoseph

God,
Please take this pain from me!
Please!
I can’t think straight
I can’t think of anything else
Just how bad he hurt me
How much I gave up
I’m coming to the conclusion
That maybe I imagined it all
That he really didn’t love me
Maybe the tattoo was more for his benefit than mine
Maybe I was stupid to believe that anybody could love me
Why did I have visions of us having a beautiful life together?
Kids, marriage, happiness
Why did he have to come into my life and snatch away from me the last bit of happiness I had left?
Just when I started to get some lil’ peace
Some serenity
He comes to hurt me
I wish I could be ground level with YOU and The Angels
Cuz there is no hurt, no pain there
Only beauty, peace, tranquility, happiness
Oh Lord!
Please take this pain from me!
Please help me let go!
Let go of the idea of him
Let go of the lies he told
Let go of the broken promises
Please God!
Help me flush him out of my system
I need you God!
More now than ever
I need your strength
Courage
Self-respect
To walk away
From the deceit
From the betrayal
From the anger
Please God!
Heal my soul
My soul is…..
My heart…. broken
My spirit….. broken
My eyes devoid of emotion
My life in confusion now
2 years of my life gone
Can’t get it back
Need to have it back
How is it that the greatest love I’ve ever known could break me?
How is it that I gave everything I could, only to get nothing?
How is it that a person could lie to your face with no remorse?
He told me he’d never leave me
You heard him
He told me he’d always love me
You heard him!
He told me I was the one he wanted to spend his life with
The one he wanted to bear his children
You heard him!
Why he do that to me?
He gave me his word that he’d never hurt me
That he’d never cheat
That he’d never lie
That he’d always treat me like a Queen
His Queen
Now I don’t want to love
I don’t want to trust
I don’t want to give
I just want to live
This pain unbearable
Don’t know what to do
I want to believe that you’ll bring him back to me
New and Improved
Ready to love me right
Ready to make up for time lost
I want to believe
But it seems the more I believe it
The more likely it seems, he’s never coming back
It hurts so bad
More so because I wasn’t trying to be in love
Because I never succeed in love
Never!
I’m tired of being alone
I’m tired of loving
Only to be heart broken in the end
God please heal this pain!
Please take it away!
Please give me the strength to walk away!
The strength to let it go!
Please give me the courage to say goodbye!
Please show me a sign
If we are not to be
I still believe in my heart that he is my life’s mate
Am I wrong?
Please tell me!
Maybe it ain’t right now
But will it be at all?
Please
Please
Please
God Please!
Help me let go
Of the pain
Of the hurt
Of the lies
Of the deceit
Of the idea
Of the dreams
Of the ….
Of the ….
Please help me let go and let God!
God please bring him back to me …..Right!

Amen,


ME


(©Copyright-Dec.10,2006)
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