A Lonely Heart Poem by Sa'uda AbdulAziz

I'm not sure why, but my room feels so cold. Sadden by my past, I'm scared of what my futur holds. I'm like a ball of frustration waiting to be released, but yet no one see this pain I'm hiding within me. You see I met this guy that talks a good game. Reluctant to pass off my number, but I figured I'd give him a chance. Captivated by his smile and the way he bights his lips, in my mind...I'm fantasizing about our first kiss. Listening to his life story, realizing that we have so much in common. Wishing I could've been around for him through all the drama. As we converse more and more each day, I want to give him my heart....I don't want to play. He's starting to cloud my judgement, he's taking over mind. As the days goes by, I wish I could see him more, but our lifestyles are totally different. He's hiding some things from me...I know because my heart can since it. It's not what I expected, this thing we have...I'm feeling neglected. I understand you have a lot to do, but in the same token...I have needs too. The need to kiss your lips, and feel your arms wrapped around my waist. I even find pleasure when I look at your face. I want to be in love, but I don't know how you feel. I know its too soon...but my emotions are racing. I love hard and I fall hard....hopping I'm not being abrasive.