A Look At Life-58 Poem by Smrui Ranjan Mohanty

A LOOK AT LIFE-58
BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY

MISTAKE OF A LIFE

I know not
how many minutes and hours,
days, months and years,
I have spent in meaningless pursuits,
in proving myself, in proving I am not at par
but head and shoulders above others.
I know not
how many times I turned my back
to truth and bliss.
How many times I failed to understand
love and it's beauty,
someone's tears, sacrifices, hours of waiting
and longing for me.

I know
hardly I lived my life for me.
It was for those significant others
whom I valued the most,
in seeking their appreciation and recognition
who themselves achieved nothing,
lived the whole of their life in illusion,
in a pseudo world with pseudo greatness
and pseudo satisfaction

I lived a life
in acquiring pelf and power,
laurels and accolades,
adding to my inflated ego,
proving before others
I am unique and different and don't belong
to the same species to which others belong

My Lord!
How far away I am from me,
from my life and it's beauty?
How futile is that life,
which is shaped and designed,
not by how one is, but
by how others view and assess it.
I achieved nothing.
What one achieves
by running away from his own,
family, friends and relations,
by alienating from the inner being,
forgetting life and its purpose,
playing all the while to the galleries?

If life means running away from oneself,
from truth and bliss.
If life is an endeavour in pursuit
of appreciation and recognition,
in chasing a mirage
which goes away farther and farther
Forgive me! My Lord
I don't need one more.

Smruti Ranjan Mohanty©
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