A Moment Of Reality Poem by Milica Lilic

While enveloped by the Moon and grazed by death
You dream about a far-away shore that is not
Conquered in your absence
I have too little of you,
More than he has me
He who suffers from admonishing longing,
From the jealousy that makes him a beast,
He sharpens his sense of being threatened
And feels the danger like a beast and knows:
You have become the centre -
You have sheltered all of me,
You have pulled me into yourself.

You have, like Zeus on Mount Olympus,
Assumed all the power and hidden me.
In vain does he give birth to me like to Aphrodite
I am not where he left me
To be waiting for the promised waking.
And you just turned up suddenly
Like a stray bullet drove into me,
Anchored in my Soul you radiate devastatingly,
And the removal of the bullet would be fatal.

The entire system of existence became disrupted,
Everything was changed hit with that shot.
My blood flow, poisoned, is clotting up
Will I be stumbling toward myself
To come back to the same road…


And you wandering under the old walls
To reach the new heights
Do not turn round
For the scene of unbearable emptiness
The abysses of my essence
Will appal you.
Filled with the mercy of the moment
Neither you nor I
Wanted it.