The Cosmic Indispensability Poem by Milica Lilic

To a Philosopher

So important to me,
You will never understand
Something very simple,
Like the crash of thunder
Emptying the skies,
My violent run after you.

Surrounded by a host of bodies
Full of beauty and passion
Inviting you wherever you go,
You did not recognize the thought,
You who descend to the foundations
Did not understand her scream,
And she longed for the echo,
For your confirmation.

You wise, experienced one, full of everything
Like a too mellow fruit,
Did not recognize that it was
The hunger of the Soul for the Other,
The vacuum of a Being gaping
With the incurable emptiness.

You saw the woman and her desire,
The things seen by the ignorant as well,
And you should have
(You know very well what)
Discerned the spirit getting ahead
Squeezed by the matter -
You should have aided it to flash!

And wherever you came
Guided by your senses and mind,
Whatever depths of knowledge you reached
You missed something so obvious.
So important to me -
Were you not because of yourself,
But because of myself.
My road kept going on.

You were the point of the ascent
From where one can see more,
And regardless of your smiles or silence,
I had to climb up
Deprived of your hands,
Supportedby my own force.

The thought I was making you of
Keeps extending, dragging me ahead,
That is the cosmic indispensability,
Like our encounter, determined by it.

You were so important to me -
To the person looking for salvation
Pushed from the abyss of life
Not into your beautiful face,
To me, an exalted woman in love.




Milica Jeftimijević Lilić