Alone Poem by Louie Gonzalez

I've been pushed down so many times
I feel this time will be the last
As I lay here fading

All my strength is drained,
With nothing left to give.
Drowning in the depths of sorrow

Too much time to remember the past
And to wish things could be different.

I cry until it wears me out
Until my thoughts start to drift out
Drift out of my thoughts and into my dreams

This is too much for my heart to carry
Carry around until I cant stand and fall
Until this knife gets dull in my hand
My hand that slashes at my wrists
from every bad thought on my mind

Cut to the bone and let myself drown
Let all the blood carry me down

It's easier for me to distance myself,
than it is to trust that you wonâ? ? t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die,
than it is for me to face life's challenges.

There's no greater pain than
To be hurt by the person you love
Abandoned in my darkest hour
by the one who said she cared.

These things I dread in my messed up world
Explained by all the blood on this knife
This knife that I cant control
When everything seems so cold

When I am alone I seem to drown
Drown in this sea of pain

No tears left to cry.
A silent voice and distant eyes
That no one hears or sees.

The tears that hurt the most
Are the ones that don't fall

All alone I feel
Alone once again
My heart feels empty

So I can finally go to sleep
Go to sleep in my bed
My eyes will no longer be red
Red as the blood on my shirt

Into the darkness
I walk all alone
No one with me,
No one following me,
No one even turning their head,
I'm gone and no one even turned to see.