Always Wondered Poem by Maya Hanson

I always wondered what this would be like,
shining words like a light on your skin
Throwing away verses till the rain comes down
and pins us to the silent walls again

I always wondered how I would stand on my tiptoes
and send you a lightning bolt in the dark
Cashing in years of writing things I don't know
for the home I've found in you, making its mark

I always wondered why I couldn't build towers,
standing here it's all worth shattered pride
I stopped wishing when I found you and now
free falling is easy when you stand by my side

I always wondered how heartache was sweet,
I can't pour out enough music to say
It's not only bitter, it's a million gathered moments
that I still won't give back, even now you've turned away

I always wondered what this would be like
if I had a chance to go back in time
I would choose to break so many times again
just to write, for a moment, that you were mine