(am I Alive) Miserable Life Poem by Ianne de Angel

I'm alive just in body's face
Because inside me, I feel
That I'm not any more in this place

I lost my spirit
I broke my old habit
Now I'm lock in this secret
As you can see and feel it...

I don't have dreams
I lost the wish of a new future
I even lost the old screams
That made me felt that I was imature

I lost the new mind
I lose what I find
I'm always lost and blind
Because my life lost the big why

The why I was here
The why I fought for
The why I would breathe
The why I went out from that door

Am I alive? Am I dead?
Did I lose the control of my head?
Did I lose my true love in a mistake?
Or am I just here waiting for someone to take
Take me away from this miserable life...