Am I Disstand? Poem by chelsi Ruffing

People say I'm very hidden to all around me
That I say nothing and let no one see
At frist I thought it was all a lie
Now that I think about it I do and really try
I never thought it was that bad
There are times I don't want to anyone to know I'm sad
Its just my world isn't always bright
Sometimes just don't always go right
There are so many things I don't understand
How somethings happened that were never palnned
To many times feeling out of place
Life always seems to be one big race
Getting let down once again I fear
Lots of things I have screamed but no one ever seems to hear
A dream that never seems to end
A truth that everyone seems to bend
The fighting to be strong
Running away from whats wrong
Losing a very tight hold
Sitting in the rain shivering cold
So am I disstand from all around me?
I guess at times I really can be