An Ordinary Advance (2007) Poem by David Joel Rodriguez

Well, more days alone far from everyone
troubled with nobody's help on what's begun
I hate it when this happens
I'm prone to these love scams
I can never do anything right
If I try to fix, they always fight

I always end up walking home alone, I don't run
I always get the bad tone, then it's done
They find and leave me with an unfinished interview
always, like I did something wrong and quickly, it's through
So I go about my business thinking about you
again wondering what went wrong looking for a clue

Am I always at fault though you walked away from me?
But I still allow my mind to linger, waiting to disagree
I don't cause it, as far as I know
She never plans it, as far as relationships go
So I met you
now, I must find a way to forget you

If I can't stop thinking about you
I'll smile for the last time what we'd been through
I finally arrive to my home
thinking all alone
tired to walk in, so I hide under, next to a tree
inquiring from my mind where she could be

I sense she won't be thinking of someone
but I'm sure she's alone thinking on her lawn
such things to happen when a person breaks
not properly mending simple mistakes
ending emotions alone but with a need
hoping to recover what could've been

unfortunately, that route was not taken
unwanted feelings were released again
this time ending what in the past should have been fixed
could have talked about it during the subsist relationship
to late now, we have thrown each other away
never again giving each other the time or day

we gave them a chance to warp together
allowed them to flare even under nasty weather
But what we should've emphatically realized
our hearts departed, then again, inertly despised
Surely are things we will never forget
these were no obligations of kinship test