Anythings Better Then This Poem by janae height

Ive been through so much in my life
from sleeping in a cold house with no heat or lights
scared to go to sleep and scared to awake
cause either way I just might get raped
all this stuff has turned me into a different person
when I go 2 school it dosent even feel like im learnin
cause all I wanna do iz get home
even though thats the place where I fell so alone
people dont understand the pain I fell
when will my life get better? I dont know only time will tell
people always say turn to god
but whenever I do it seems like my problems are never resolved
when I get older I want a life better then this
thats why I hope I dont die quick unlike some of these other kids
sometimes I ask myself why them and not me?
why dose god continue to let me breath?
I really dont know
so i guess ill just go with the flow
like 50 said 'death gotta be easy cause life is hard'
and i dont think better days are coming for me at all.