Before An After Poem by Raquel C,,

Before:
I know that moment
The moment when I realized I lost something
when I felt the ache start in my stomach then travel to my heart
the ache of loss so great I was left empty of anything
then it traveled up and settleld in my chest and throat
and I felt as though others should have been able to see my body expand
because I was indefinitly going to bust
and every scream and shout was pointless because
I felt so empty and full
it was an indescribable pain
and i was cold
the cold that cant be fixed by blankets

After:
im alone and everybody is gone because i scared them away with my sorrow
they lied to me said they understood
now i have nothing
im empty
my emotion left
it left with my last tears
i dont care
should i?
i hate myself now
i dont know why
i just do
thats funny though because im my only friend