Before I Had Only Heard You Exist... Poem by Mohammad Younus

Before I had only heard you exist...
...I'd inherited all faith, and had no self-realisation;
Allahu Akbar - God is the Greatest!
Before I saw your manifestation all around...
I believed you live in the heaven;
Before I got to know your beauty...
...beauty had never been...
...as vividly divine to my eyes;
Before I knew your absolute unity...
...it was such a cruel irony - an unfortunate paradox!
To imagine that the creator of such a wonderful beauty...
...is somewhere far from humans beyond the earth;
Having seen you all around...
...I don't now have any delusion or illusion...
...about your true being;
Having felt you now...
...with me, in me, and out of me...
...I no more suffer...
...from any fear of loneliness in my life;
Because of having shone your holy light...
...on myself and the multiverse...
...You have saved me:
From a lifetime of bitter solitude and negativity;
From a self-imposed sentence...
...of silent unconsciousness of my real self;
How can I think to repay my infinite debt to you...
...for granting me self-consciousness;
By forever devoting myself...
...to the truth and the reality...
...that absolutely and undoubtedly you are;
Certainly the greatest miracle in my life is...
...that only through your blessings...
...I have renewed my divine faith;
Grant me please the acumen...
...for using your gift of wisdom and knowledge;
To illuminate and save myself and others...
...from the darkness that entraps us;
I harbor absolute faith...
...in your Absolute Unity as you teach me;
I have the greatest and unshakeable hope...
...in all your divine plans and programs;
My obligation is to be ever beside you...
...in your presence, such that the words...
...'near or far' become very much irrelevant;
And my life is not mine...
...rather it is absolutely yours;
You are my only guardian and light!
I've only but begun to recover and realize...
...my True essence;
The ambition of realising my essence divine...
...I admit, will take time and full devotion;
That feat's a worthwhile, rewarding, and sacred endeavor!
So that I could take flights to the Garden of Eden...
...and return to your presence - the paradise lost.

MyKoul