Beside Me Poem by Brandon Nothing

I look up at the glowing box before me
Shedding my independence with glee
I look to you and I say I want to be like that
You want to be like me
Why can’t we live the way we are?
Never content, I didn’t even notice you next to me!
You disappeared for years
Tonight is just another one of those nights
This song lacks identity but all fiends
This slate as many times as I say it is, it’s never cleaned
I’ve had enough of this blanket; I throw it to the sky
Let the wind drag away the senses
I thought I heard something beside me but it was just a cry
I welcome denial with open arms
This space seems so empty with nobody here
All alone, finally it is all for me
But what good does all this do me?
I was going to let it all out and let you know
But then you disappeared for years…
Even without you here, it still feels like you are somewhere
With no one beside me I find it hard to try
It all happens again; I’m still here for you
Even though I never want to
There is nothing left in your form
There is nothing I wouldn’t do
Everything is backwards in this fault
This song is stuck in my head why?
For you I have nothing to pray for
Every day it feels like I die a little more
Everything used to be fine, it used to be great
One day you looked a little pale
And every day I grew a little frail
Until one day when we couldn’t go on
I shouldn’t be surprised the signs boasted betrayal
I started to believe the day was near
You continue to drag on these battles with me
Even without you here, you attack my mind
You taught me to feel pain, perhaps that’s what I love you for
The screening silence floods the air
In my mind you're still there
Why can’t you just leave me be!
I would like to think you disappeared
I can not ever achieve this goal
I look down and find in my chest
Find a new hole!