Bittersweet Valentines Poem by emily summers

Recurring agony inside,
Memories whirring in my mind,
Never to happen again,
You ripped away your love from me,
Created a false security,
Like a bully stealing a toddlers blanket,
You stole my heart only to shatter it.

My emotions are raw,
The temporary blow of fury,
Followed by the everlasting sadness,
Aching in my heart,
Yearning for your warmth, your compassion again.

Desiring to find hatred in my heart for you,
Despite ploughing through the feelings,
All I discover is love,
Tainted by the disappointment,
Tainted by the wrath,
Tainted by the hurt,
That you inflicted.

Lured into a trap,
Believing my infatuation was reciprocated,
Appreciated and redelivered,
But after scratching the surface,
I realised you’d turned us sour.

The carefree attitude I wear so faultlessly,
Is simply a facade,
A mask I wear to conceal the wounds,
I know they’ll never heal,
So in your fashion, I’ll pretend everything’s fine.

I learnt from the master,
Pretending to live in bliss,
When it’s a disaster,
What did I do to deserve this?

You waited until I was addicted,
Dependant on your drug,
Then you extracted,
And I got withdrawal symptoms,
My rehab is when I cry myself to sleep,
I want to hate you,
But I can only weep.