Blanket Of Fear Poem by Ashley Breding

I m afraid of spiders
Deathly, Extremly afraid.
Afraid of the way they can crawl up on me,
When i least expect it...in my sleep.


Afraid of the uncertanty of never really knowing,
What species is deadly...
What species is poisonous...
Or what species just gives me a rash.

I am afraid of the empty places,
The hidden secret spaces,
Where spiders can crawl and hide...
I can ignore it and cover it up,
But soon it is then soon infested with new webs and eggs.

Multiplying my fear.

Because their webs-I am afraid of the complexing...
The intricate, precise designs of these intoxifying creatures.
This art, this chemestry, This tangle is too perplexing for me to understrand.

Because i keep destroying them-
And they keep coming back...
Worse.

I am afraid to look at a spider.
I am afraid to kill a spider.
But to live with a spider...
Is the ultimate hell.

Yes, I am afraid of spiders.
But i am also afraid of the fact that nobody cares.
Afraid that nobody understands.

I am afraid of being alone.
And I am.

Alone with the spiders and me.