Breaking down is becoming constant
Leaving me alone
Inside a darkened hole
Breaking down is becoming a normal thing
When all I’m doing is sitting
And thinking
Feeling alone
Breaking down
Now
What is the point?
In living
All I feel is pain
Jealousy
Hate
Frustration
Hearing complaints
And time without you
Makes me sick
Feeling like I’m dead
Can’t go on without you
Next to me beside my bed
But
I don’t wanna be with you!
I don’t wanna fight again and again
I don’t wanna hear you yell
I don’t wanna face you
And your guilt trips
I can’t handle your baggage
Can’t carry your load
But I don’t wanna be without you
I can’t stand feeling like this
Your not here!
But I don’t want you to be
I don’t want you with her
Seeing you just talking
Makes me ill
Like I wish to kill
I’m so sick of this
I can’t be your friend
But I don’t wanna be enemies
Why do you do this?
Yes!
I’m blaming you for this
You didn’t have to do what you did
Leaving me like that
You weren’t supposed to go
Skip… I miss you
Please come back
No no I don’t mean him!
God Dam* I’m sick of this!
NO! NO! NO!
THIS ISN’T ABOUT HIM
IT’S ABOUT YOU AND ME
IT’S ABOUT YOU AND I
ME AND YOU
DON’T YOU DO THIS TO ME
JAKE
The way you make me feel
It isn’t fair
You make me happy
Then you just dropp me
Let go
Sending me to the ground
Crashing down
I can’t help it
I try to stand back up
After this…
Yes I know it was my choice
I ended it …
Does that mean I have to be happy?
No it doesn’t
I’m not
I’m worse
Am I?
No I’m better….
Am I?
I can’t even tell
If I’m happy or not
I don’t know
All I know
Is I miss you
But I don’t wanna be with you
I want you there
But not here
I don’t want to see you with her
But not with me
I guess I’m selfish
Like you say
But I’m not am I?
I don’t care about myself
You said so yourself
All I do is think of others
But you say it like that’s bad
Is it?
You sounded so sick of it
Every time you mentioned it
Tired out like old news
Was I that bad?
Not caring for myself?
And if I was
How do you call me selfish
Now that it’s over
Because for once
ONCE in my life
I did something
FOR ME?
So I’m too other worry
But now I’m selfish
I am so confused
I miss you
I loved you
I hated you
I wanted you
I need you
You will never read this
But I will always wish you did
But it’s my choice
Because I will never show you
Or tell you
That I wrote it…
I’ll always wish you did
But I won’t allow you to see it
once you've falling in deep love................drama arises..............
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
I like this poem it is well expressed.