Breathe Poem by Chantelle T C Huggins

completely lost in this sea of thought,
going deeper and deeper,
closely approaching a death by drowning
my body reforming
futher and futher I drift
a perfect life a myth
my body my soul, my entire being,
I fall apart completely scattered; battered,
by life's insecurities, these
these that make me uneasy, queasy
lost, caught between a rock, and a hard place,
your words, I blame, my heart, race
your face I continuously place at the centre of my being,
seeing; seeing you, seeing me
together; forever; leave you never,
reality hits, like rocks, stones, sticks,
is it what I want; need,
or is it greed,
breathe; breathe deeply; in and out,
no need to shout,
i feel myself exploading, the wording,
flow from deep within, 'him'
him that i want, him that i need, greed,
breathe; in and out,
don't doubt, in out
I spin, you spin, we spin together, forever; or never,
clever, your plan, your desire,
to be, require; a dark hole; a needing, breathing;
breathing in out no doubt; about
about life, about love; a dove,
as calm as they fly, high; die,
a reality we all face,
thoughts race; brace,
brace for the inevitible, the incredible,
the only thing we are sure of in life,
yet we still strive;
strive to be, to see, to want, to need; greed...........breathe