Brian Verdida Poem by Christy Marie Lucero

We first met on the third of November
I stared at you so dear
You were sitting far from me
I didn't know you were gay


At lunch, we shared convo at the pantry
Heard advices from your lips
To calm my nervousness
And this friendship started to flourish


I knew from the start what is your preference
You are happy with your life now, I know
And I don't deserve to broke that essence
But I don't understand why I have this inside me

I knew you're not straight
But there is something in you that has made me infatuated
I woke up and
I began to see myself falling


We had spent a night together
And then I decided to tell you everything
I knew that it is not ideal but
I wanted to escape from this damn feeling

But to have the FRIENDSHIP is much wiser
Than fighting for this love and be your lover
Thank you for understanding to my confessions
I will be bearing this until it hurts never...