Broken Poem by Meg Gardiner

i remember...
i remember that summer evening.
the first day in four years that i had seen my 'angel'.
he was dressed to the T like the letter.
white shirt. black pants. smile to light the whole room.
48hours after that moment, we began our fairytale.
your were perfect.
& i...
& i was the luckiest girl in the world.
i devoted 2 months to falling deeply in love you,
and you fell in 'love' with me too.
you see, love at first is summertime.
thats when i thought that everything was fine.
i never thought it was going to end.

september came..
september came and i did you wrong.
i ruined my life, my love..
my self esteem.. shattered.
my confidence.. weak.
my heart.. broken.
i did what most stupid girls do..
i didnt listen & i got punished for it.
you were gone, out of my life.
my world stopped spinning.
my days drew dark & cold.

its been 322 days,21 hours and 44 minutes;
ive become a different person due to this.
its hard to smile without crying..
hard to be happy without wondering..
its hard to not attempt to make another bad decision.

.. i guess im just broken now,
along with my heart, my spirits and soul.
im just..
b r o k e n