Broken Poem by Deena Hardy

I am numb inside exept to pain

I smile, I laugh, I pretend to be happy

For them, my friends

my problems are not their's to be delt with

I didn't use to be this way

I use to have fun

smile, laugh, play

even more when I met you

you...who made me

smile, laugh, play even more

I loved you, still do

I should have told you when I had the chance

but I was afraid and unsure

I've thought I've loved before

I was wrong

I know now the sharp pain in my chest when I think about you now

the pain I feel when I think of you with someone else

I also know the the bliss of just being in your presence

the joy of just talking to you about nothing at all

that I believe is love

I would be happy just to have you back for a little while

or do something to fix what I've done

but that is not what you want

so I will go numb to feel nothing so that you will be happy

that I wish above all else