Can I? Poem by Lizzy Henry

Can I run and hide?
Can I find a place to hide?
Can I now find someone,
Who actually cares
If I'm gone?
What if I never do?
Can I then Die?
Can I then crawl away,
To this place
Ive wanted to go to for some time?
Can I see him?
Have him tell me I'm going to be OK?
But now I see I cant
Even though
I can.
Can I at least cry?
Though that may make it worse.
So ill go on living my life
The way it is now
Painting this smile on my face
Waiting for someone
To come along
And help me
Can I fake smile till then?
Can I make it?
Do I just give up?
Its hard
But can I try?
Can I truly Try and live my life?