Can I Surrender My Life? Poem by Ro___ fhiwa

Can I surrender my life?

Each time I attempt, a circumstance that helps to remember giving gets through.

Like a pile of dishes left by the owner hoping for a miracle to at least wash them, pain keeps piling up. Can I surrender my life?

I have a home that is comfortable for my panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, and obsessive-compulsive disorder, which makes it difficult for me to leave that home. Can I surrender my life?

I have forgotten what happiness is like, and sadness is the only emotion in my soul that is about to give up. Its not beating that. Therefore, can I surrender my life?

Every night I am overwhelmed by all the memories I have suffered. Tears run down my cheeks, symbolising that nothing is right anymore. Can I surrender my life?

I'm just in this room of darkness with no hope of light coming through anytime soon. Can I surrender my life?

How can I believe in hope when I've lost all connection with beauty? the reality? Can I surrender my life?

Can I surrender my life?

Getrude Mamathuntsha