Catastrophic Life Poem by Muhammad Umair

Everything felt like it was intact,
Despair seemed hopeful, infact;
There was a flamboyance in utter misery.
When you were living with me,
It felt like we can achieve ecstasy;
Infinity seemed describable and
Everything seemed intelligible, even geometry.
My heart danced and it always sang;
The fragrance of your breath was like
A glass full of rose water.

You were everywhere I saw;
You were my days, months and years,
The moments I spent without you
Felt like a sorrowful smile of a mournful person
And I always told how much I loved you,
Yet you decided to leave by
Causing me this catastrophic agony.
You were the song I sang,
The poem I read,
And someone I saw eternity in.

I saw you in every object of nature
As a Romanticist saw God in it,
But now, since you are gone, it
Compels me to be an Existentialist---
Everything is so meangingless now.
I was so wrong about love when I thought
It would last forever. I wish I could stand
Here and wait for my Death to come
And hold Me in its arms, since that
Intactness seems damaged and hopeful---despair now.