Cold Memories Poem by Keith Anastase KAMOSSO

'Based on a true story, real life, everyday's feeling to those whose lost their loved ones and are still alive, reality in the moment of loneliness, dark moments of loss of those ones we deeply loved.'

In loving memory of my father and 'Stecy' the Love of my life



Tell me again about the happy day
Help me to forget all the pain and misery that I'm going through
Because not a day goes by that I don't think of you
And not a day goes by that I don't miss you
That's why at every evenings and mornings I still sing the same lullaby

Long earlier, before it was all said and done
I used to get lost in the magnificence of your presence
The beauty of everything you used to do and say
But now it's like my soul is covered in mud
That's why I am miserable within my vocabulary

Sometimes I find myself deeply wondering
If you stand by the kitchen window
Wrap off the curtains and look on the outside
If there is a window like a this one,
Thinking of those perfect and shared old moments together

This barrage jammed between you and me
Preventing us from getting-together
Reminds me how much I necessitate you here and right now
And that wakens the once asleep ache in my heart
That's the reason of these tears in my eyes

Nobody remembers holidays around here anymore
But why would they if you won't be here?
It is all dark like the tunnel without the light at the end
On the outside it's all strong and hard to break
But in the inside are the not-reassembled pieces to pieces

They say home is at everyplace the heart dwells
But if my heart is constantly in the company of you
Then maybe I should come and domicile with you
But not in this place devoid of you
That's the reason of this cold blood that I am shading

Preach me no more about home I've learned enough
I've learned a lot about the dwelling place and its feelings
I made no mistake saying that I'm ready to join you
It's all for nothing if I won't share it all with you now
That's why I am asking to nobody here about the happy day

I know I can't see with closed eyes, but
I rather keep them bunged since I see you through closed eyes
And as good as it feels I want to be blind eternity
And if I am dreaming don't wake me up
Because that is the only one moment I feel you so nearby

The loneliness that was left behind remains in my heart
That unfilled space within between my heart and soul stick within
Nothing is identical without you to any further extent
All I want is to make that love last for eternity
And make forever feel this way for all the time to come


Dream don't turn to sand I accept as true
Time was supposed to carry on but not carry me under the earth
Why am I down to the bottom, under the dark cloud?
With not anything on my brainpower
But only Memories of Emptiness