Comming Down From Happiness. Poem by Black Rose Night

Burning thoughts of sorrow and pain.
I'm not sure how to face the pain in my heart and the burning of my soul.
I need to unfold and hold myself together.
I'm falling apart.
Starting with my heart and ending with the soul.
Embracing the fear.
Hating it's toll.
Hating the thought of creating these thoughts in my mind.
The thoughts of being torn down by fate and burned by time.
The trail of sorrow blackens my heart.
It's tearing me apart.
I hate this part.
Over and over it slashes my mind with huge gashes of black.
Making the darkness come back.
The darkness i once banished from my mind is corrupting my heart and blackening my soul.
Once again hating it's toll.
How can i escape from this missery? ? ?
Why can't i just be happy? ? ?
I found u and u make me complete and yet i'm not happy.....
How can this be? ?
I found what i have been searching my eternal life for and now sorrow and pain is crashing down on me like acid rain! ! ! ! !
Why? ?
Why can't i just be happy? ? ?
Am i truly cursed to remain alone? ? ?
Am i cursed to remain burned with the gashes of sorrow? ? ?
I don't know....? ? ?