Complaint Poem by Maria Sudibyo

Why should I get those words in my ears?
Why do you choose me to flow them unexpectedly?
And I was damned to always listen and smile
It was not my first place to be there and treat you
I don’t want to dance above your money too
It’s just a responsibility and I’m swept by hope
That I will help you and not hurt anybody
But why, why do I listen those words
And it keeps replying over and over
Asking me to question myself
I accepted the pain, but why, why
It still hurts inside and makes me despair