Confession Poem by Maria Barcan

these words lose their meaning
between the pages' binding
as the days keep unwinding
towards springtime cleaning
towards springtime I'd've thought
that the sun would be shining
yet it's darkness that's blinding
in the silence I've sought
crowned by silence, stand tall
eyes of steel never hiding
yet I'm barely surviving
from the weight of it all
from the weight and the strain
oh, the humour of timing
is now silently driving
all my pieces insane
of my pieces devoid
all my thoughts are confining
while your thoughts are refining
whole new worlds out of void
whole new fears armed with swords
that I've lately been fighting
since I can't keep on writing
after reading your words
after reading this confession
might it even be rhyming
let me leave from your binding
be released from obsession
be released from the fright
be relieved to be finding
that I haven't been crying
in the long sleepless night
in the long year that's passed
know that you were a lightning
but your darkness was blinding
and your heart moved too fast
and your heart must survive this
it was warm and inviting
and I would hate the sighting
of it lost in abyss
of it closed off again
since you helped me from sliding
from getting stuck in my hiding
but your quest was in vain

since at first came the lightning
I'm preparing for rain
I'm preparing for pain
I'm becoming insane...