Conflicting Heart Poem by ashley roberts

Let me go, let me cry let me live and watch the world go by
Let me grow old and die in my sleep where my hurt is defeat
Dont let me live this life where i have to grow up so slowly
I am trying oh so hard but i am finding it so hard to be me
In my eyes i see a clock slowly tick by, i feel my heart cry
my mind is so busy wondering if i should stay or say goodbye
I keep saying i can beat this but thats just one more deny
I dont want to live this life but i cant take whats in my mind
So much hate so much fear so much hurt over the tear filled years
Only abuseive ways monday to sunday my heart was out of phase
Couldent bare to deal with what it had been forced to deal
I dont want to die a young age but i cant...i wont..i refuse
to live life when only hurt fear and a broken heart is all i feel