Confused By Her Smile Poem by Sean Buchsbaum

Hearing what I feel
is all I can see
its what I need to be

I'm doing
all that I can
being
all that I am

I love to see
your happiness
while dead to your sadness
alive to the world
living the moment
killing my past

tearing it up
laughing at all the past
confused at your smile
feeling what I want
seeing what I cant admit

your true feelings
are not for me
but for the world
as it is
to all the lies
I left behind
to step up
be here now
Im living

but I hate what I feel
creating my
box
hiding inside it
finding the corner
die inside it

I saw her smile
she touched me
but it wasn't me
it was me
all that I am
not who I am
Im a liar
deep down inside
Im as fake as can be
the person you feel
the person you want to touch
not me but me