Confusion Poem by Kristy Artmann

You hold me closer as I pull away,
Why do things have to be like this today?

I allowed my mind to go astray,
Palpable is the destruction of gainsay.

But I just can’t stop my hearts desires at the moment,
Tedious ponderings have my soul feeling vacant.

Elusive are my feelings and emotions towards you,
Empty are the decisions to make on what to do.

How can I be true to you and still be in love with another,
Sometimes I wake up and ask myself ‘why bother? ’

The love is there but not as strong as everyone would expect,
It’s as if my heart is speaking to my mind in an unknown dialect.

Love is on hold but no one knows what fate has in store for the future,
Both will have to steadfastly wait for God to give us the answer.

Acquaintances and lovers may come and go but friends stick together through thick or thin,
It is friends who listen and understand where it is that we’ve been.

So for the moment friendship’s goal is to take its toll,
Til my heart and mind connect and over my thoughts and emotions I take control.

~Kristy C. Artmann~ © 2008