Confussion Poem by 7Shadows Teed

Should we have broken up?
Was it a mistake?
So many questions run through my mind right now.

You haven't been truly happy since that happened.
We haven't been our selves since that happened.
Was the break up a mistake?

I keep telling myself that it’s a test,
But I’m not sure if it is.
I'm not sure about a lot of stuff anymore.

I want to believe it is a test and that we will be together again one day.
However on the the same hand I keep telling my self it's not and we won't.
I'm so use to getting hurt that I refuse to get my hopes up,
But there's something about you.
I can't let my self completely think that way.

You've made me go crazy.
I tell myself one thing and turn around and tell my self the opposite.

I'm ready to die now.
Ready to fall to the bottom of this pit and just lay there in the darkness,
Just let it consume my soul as I slowly die.

My mind is too messed up now to think straight.
I can barely put my thoughts into words right now.
What the hell is going on with me?

I've never been this way over a guy.
What have you done to me?
You made me fall in love with you.
Not that I regret it cause I don't...
It's just I’ve never had so many problems putting my thoughts into words.

I've finally gone crazy for a guy and I can't have him.
Heh...
Seems like that happens to me a lot.

I can finally get my thoughts gathered and yet they aren't mine.
They aren't me,
But at the same time they are.

So much confusion,
So much of a broken soul,
There's just so much I can't figure out right now.
I have my thoughts as gathered as much as I can get them and yet still I'm having problems putting stuff into words.

It's not necessarily a bad thing.
You're the first guy that has done this to me.
The first guy I truly fell for.
I don't see this as a bad thing,
But not completely a good thing either.

It's good yet not completely good...
But it's even the least bit bad.
Here I go again with the broken thoughts.

I might make this sound like a bad thing and I’m sorry,
But it's not a bad thing.