Conundrum-Less Now Poem by Lone Ghost

Serene soothing solace sudden set sail...

Trying to recover pleasantness...

I go to the corner of my mind,
preoccupied, thinking how can I find
the combination of thoughts
that would solve my mental puzzle of faults...

'what if...
what if I do this and that..
yeah! that would work
well...
but now I have to...
I have to'

And that conundrum never ends
unless...
I let go of my unneeded defense...
But I am planning
as I see my life passing...
constructing illusions
that consolidate into delusions
to keep mental images alive...

and so that's why
when I really ask for rain...
outside is always dry,
and when I long for a sunny day...
pouring-raindrops never fade.

It is only by letting go of control
that I recover control...

I accept what lies beyond my hands...
myself begins to navigate in consciousness...
I feel the air I am breathing now,
the psychological rehearsal stops,
I step out of my memory...
into the vast wonders of reality
and begin to feel the vibratory
field of this moment once more...
'what is next...
hhmmm...hahaha...'

Once back in poised,
calmed, rooted to the eternal now,
my mind and attention have no time for worries,
and once again control is in my employ...

I am ready to act anytime in natural joy.