Couldn'T Quite Answer Poem by Shilesha Johnson

you asked me a question that i couldn't quite answer
kept switching directions and shifting like a dancer
it's not cause i didn't wan't to
what i didn't want was to hurt you
i don't want to deal with how i feel or felt
i just want to leave them wandering and un delt
i don't want what i'm feeling to come up from inside
because after all this time that's what i tried to hide
not from you, or him but mainly from myself
because i was happy and i was with someone else
there was no need for the feelings to surface
because i had you and thought that was my purpose
and now that all of this is happening, i can't quite focus
im trying so hard but i cant seem to shake this
but when you asked me i just couldn't find the words
because i heard you right
but some how everything got blurred
do i?
i jus can't respond
i dont want to go beyond
jus want it to stop here
jus don't want whatever 'it' is to go anywhere