Daddy Wants Me Gone. Poem by Desiree Whitamore

with all this water flooding me,
i try to catch my breath.
i know that you aren't what you seem
but i can't show you yet.

my heart is in the right place.
i enjoy this fear.
i know that we aren't working out
and i can't bring you near.

i've felt the hole inside me.
i've jumped to save myself.
you can't see how strong i am
if i only call for help.

i've learned how much i hate you.
and how much you mean to me.
and i know this life seems endless,
when you're drowning peacefully.

real pain comes in doses
the hurt will come in swings.
i've felt the way you love me
and i've felt most everything.

it's okay not to know me.
it's better this way, in fact.
and all i've got to ask of you
is that you don't look back.