Dead Inside Alone Is I Poem by Kim Patterson

Nine twenty four zero nine, for me it all started to fade

Months had past with no positive change, only continuous misery's made

I cry and beg for love and understanding, and I don't expect much at all.

Feel all alone teetering on the edge with no one to catch me if I fall.

Right now, and for awhile, my family to me is all that matters.

I Just want to be shown love, but instead I must endure emotional batter.

I hurt so much from this pain, even more so from the emotional pain.

Your hurtful words stab like a knife through my broken heart I cry to be sane.

You say you love me but its you who adds the hurt, so how is it that you care?

How is it that you have love for me when you've stated I'm to much to bare?

Im sorry I can't believe you when you say those three little word, 'I love you.'

When you do nothing for me to feel it or show me that you're sincere and being true.

If love is what you have for me its the hurt and pain you'd want to take away.

Instead its constant fighting, I'm just left here to hurt and cry day after day.

After each fight you say you're sorry and that you will begin to change.

Well the same stuff happens, this between us, and it just seems very strange.

You go to sleep always peaceful, unaffected as it often does seem.

I can't sleep, I cry all night and you get mad over the sadness you'd see.

You don't get why I'm sad and depressed suddenly all of the time.

You yell and hurt me and then I'm stressed, and fault you say is all mine.

So then this will be my life a vicious emotional roller coaster ride.

With no one not even you standing here by my side.

Forvever I will live Dead Inside Alone is I...




(written: 04/20/2010)