Rick Adriolo

Ten, nine..
Inside I feel a silent roar that builds up more and more..
In my heart I contain this urge that is trying to emerge..
I feel it swell up in me, inside of me, I try to scream it away silently..
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Those eyes filled with anger, sorrow, fear and confusion
Can you see the heavy weight
Inside those eyes there is no illusion
Can you see the horrors of what they are afraid
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I've seen more of you dissapear than I ever got to know..
Your mood swings from high to so sadly low..
Feeling so lucky when I catch you being glad..
But sometimes it seems that my presence is enough to get you mad..
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It's a hard beating, hard beating
they got this time..
It's a hard feeling, hard feeling
I did this crime..
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Into the darkness the feelings sway
For they prolonged its stay
As these feelings have gotten deep
It has gotten harder to catch my sleep..
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With you on that side..
With me on this side..

It's the gab between you and me..
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As the night unfolds the hours tick by
The world sleeps but why can't I?  
I wonder how it is this sort of thing has come to be
And are there more who toss and turn just like me..
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Today I heard the only verdict you could possibly find,
That my words are nothing but the subjectivity of my own diseased mind..
You see me as the catalyst of all the dark things you did,
For I bring out sheer darkness in the heart of every soul I mingle with..
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All those times you blamed me
For the things i didnt do
All those times you came to me
To talk our problems through
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The fierceness of this immortal thought..
Yet another try to escape this grand scheme that bounds my life..
For I've been knocking the doors of dreams lately, but without results..
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I've settled down, bought a house and soon someone calles me dad
I have to walk the dog, go to work and I'm not feeling sad
Lived my life free and done what I wanted done
Reach my goals and now I've settled down
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As I see the setting sun I'm reminded that I too, am one..
For I am a old soul shrouded in mystery,
Detached from the rest of the world for I'm too deranged from this reality..
Desires and wishes have left me with nothing consistence,
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In another world we seem to be.
A creation of our own, somewhere to flee.
Somehow all appears to be real.
Though it's still just a dream.
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Waking up and staring into the blur that causes so much fright
Everything got different when I lost my perfect sight
I cherish the night, now my eyes can't handel the light
I do everything and won't give up without a fight
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You got my heart
My heart on a string
Got what it takes to take everything
Take everything with just one little smile
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It's getting to hard, much to hard for me
For me still everything is to hard to see
Sunlight still shines and makes his way
But somehow it just can't clear my day
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Inspiration comes and goes.
I write it down or I’ll forget while searching for a pen.
Inspiration comes and goes.
I get is from dreams or experiences.
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Mirror on the wall
Please let me see what I need to see
Because lately I'm not feeling al that strong
Nothing seems to make me happy, nothing seems to be fun
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I keep my secrets for myself even for those I think to trust
I lock them away in my heart or in a box marked 'do not touch'
I still have so many good memories of the past deep inside
I weep for the reason that they are there together with the secrets I hide
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